I have been depending on photos, funny stuff I’ve received from friends, and poetry, for most of my posts recently and there are several reasons for that. For one, I’ve been battling asthma this winter and it has kept me at home more than usual, but has also sapped my energy.
I have to admit that I’m not a very patient individual, I’ve always gone pretty much at a dead run for most of my life and being forced to slow down has not been something that I anticipated or wanted. But it is a reality and with the pace slowed down considerably, I sometimes find my thoughts getting very dark – not all the time, but sometimes, like now – when mentally I still have so much energy, but physically I don’t and I find the frustration difficult to deal with. And watching my kids, struggling with the concerns, the realities of our economy and not being able to do anything to help adds still more frustration.
So, the days become more difficult and frustrating and as it gets later at night, I find myself fighting off an unhealthy wave of frustration and depression. I don’t show it to my kids because they have enough to cope with – so, guess what? You, my fellow bloggers, get to listen to my whines and whimpers!
I thank you all for your support, your kind comments – you make it all bearable and I know that many of you are going though some of the same crap – please know that I’m there for you as well.
And with those cheerful and uplifting words, I will bid you good night. Thank you!
Sylvia's world in thoughts and pictures
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I'm interested in almost everything. Use to like to travel, but it's too expensive now. I take Tai Chi classes, swim, volunteer in a Jump-start program for pre-schoolers. I'm an avid reader and like nearly everyone these days I follow politics avidly. I'm a former teacher and Special Projects Coordinator for a Telecommunications company, Assistant to the President of a Japanese silicon wafer manufacturing company. Am now enjoying retirement -- most of the time. I have two daughters, one son-in-law and two sons scattered all over the country. No grandchildren.
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I talked with a friend on the phone earlier, and we both confessed that we've been depressed this winter. For some reason it's been a rough one for lots of people. You're probably feeling better because that's when we're able to talk about it. I hope you are.
Hugs!!
Asthma is no fun! And it can be dangerous if not treated. Take care and know that you are in my prayers.
It has been a really rough winter for you, more than for us here in the east. Asthma is a tough one to cope with.
We are here for you, Sylvia. Let it out if you feel like it. It helps to write it down sometimes, that's for sure. I find I've turned to the silly toons and things like that to distract me. It gets me through some days. You do whatever you have to do
I have four grown kids too. I keep telling myself - they're all grown up now. They can handle it without you! Some days I actually make myself believe it.
My children are struggling too..especially son Scott, whose wife moved in with a boyfriend while he was in Afghanistan. But, you're right! All we can do is support them emotionally. I stay very busy and that keeps me from being depressed.
Whine all you want. We will pull you back up. It's been a hard winter for depression. I find it hard to watch the news at all. Just take care of yourself and remember Spring is right around the corner and we can all sing with the birds.
Hi, this is my first visit to your blog and I think it's really nice. I'm sorry you're not feeling well. I have chronic bronchitis myself, so I know how frustrating breathing problems can be. I hope you soon feel better!
Sylvia, I struggle with my back and in the same eay it slows me down too. And I don't like it. I appreciate you and my other blogger friends for being there and keeping me thinking and enjoying myself at the computer... I'm there for you as you are there for me! :)
The winter's been too long and asthma's no fun and the economy does stink...so whine away, Sylvia! We can take it, especially when you're always cheering us up with either funnies or beautiful photographs or just being you.
Spring's almost here---we'll make it. I hope it brings all good things to you and your kids.
I am so sorry to read about your struggles with asthma, sylvia. These are such tough times. It's especialy hard to watch loved ones struggling with an economy that is simply out of their hands. I hope that recovery is around the corner, just like the spring we know is on its way.
A blog, to me, should be the ups and downs and it's not about always being cheerful but about writing what is. It's great when it's an up but it isn't that way for anyone. With you not getting enough oxygen into your bloodstream, it's not surprising you'd have less energy and feel depressed. I don't have that excuse and I have been feeling down also. The only consolation is spring is nearly here and summer coming
Hi Sylvia,
Asthma may be a sign that something is burdening your Heart and is preventing you from feeling something new in this moment until older repressed feelings are released from your body resulting in depression and a lack of energy. When this sadness builds up again, look at it positively as an opportunity to release the feelings once and for all. As the sadness arises label the feelings and describe what you are feeling so the vibrations can be processed and released from the body. We all feel with every moment, but when we don't process what we feel the moment energy enters into us, the feelings, or therefore emotions stay with us until they are released. Just be sure to thank the feelings after you describe them to the best of your ability and to intend them to be released for good. This will unclog the energy field allowing you to feel the New Moment again. But we must be present to process the new feelings whether good or bad, or they will lodge themselves in our bodies again causing distress and disease.
I hope these suggestions work for you. We are all so different and experience the world so uniquely and differently. It's hard to say what would work for other people.
That's what we're here for. My complaining blog and photography has taken a forefront in my life. Blogs let you rant to something else other than your family and close friends. And those you meet online can sometimes be more supportive ;-) So rant away girlfriend and we will listen.
I'm sorry you're not feeling better. I don't think any of us are immune to finding ourself in a blue funk. Whenever I find myself strolling down that path I make myself stop and realize part of the battle is me and how I look at things and only I can turn the wheel and change the path of how I view my life. I start counting my blessings.
Don't let the blue funk get you. No matter what we think we really only have to turn our head and realize things could be worse. Find your silver lining and don't let go. :-)
Dearest Sylvia
I know asthma well - although I have it pretty much under control these days. I also believe it's an illness that comes from underground worries (or maybe not so underground in your case). Are you getting treatment for the physical effects?
It is bloody hard to watch others near and dear suffer when you can do little to help. The support of kind words and love help heaps however.
Here's some for you ...
And breath deeply and often.
June in Oz
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